Hello everyone! My name is Yaz Rooney. I’m a British expat who has had the great fortune of having lived and worked in six different countries around the world (I lived in two others as a child!), and in so doing have discovered the remarkable inner world of the spirit. In my long journey, I’ve been a teacher, healer, and writer. Now I’m truly excited to add blogging to the list of things I love to do.
Life has not always been easy. Following a wonderful life of travel, a lovely marriage, two amazing children, and spiritual work that I loved, tragedy struck. I lost my first-born child Zak, when he was 21 years old. He died in a car accident, and left our lives shattered. That was in May 2007. Since then, my journey took a rocky turn. I found myself in a state of what the bible calls Armagheddon, others call The Dark Night, and what I call the Road to Samarra. After a life of what I called ‘spiritual dedication’ I was furious at what God had done to me. I ranted and raged for a long time, I fought against everything that I had ever learned and turned my back on the Divine. It was a battlefied; spiritual mayhem. My inner world was turned upside down, and everything I had come to believe was called into question. And yet, as the years passed, and in spite of my self, I began to understand why this experience had to come to pass. I discovered the meaning in my dreadful circumstances, and my son’s death brought many gifts of insight that couldn’t have come to me through any other means.
Five years later, here I am, a completely transformed human being. I gave up teaching and healing after Zak died. I lost my nerve, my sense of knowing, and my connection to my spirit. I died a horrible death, leaving behind a person who had searched for God, struggled inwardly with her demons and sought comfort in New Age pursuits that had come to mean very little in the grand scheme of things. As I recovered, I found myself in a completely different space. In this place the world looked different and I discovered such unbelievable perspectives that I realized I was looking through the eyes of God. Now, I don’t teach; instead I prefer to share. I came to realize that I am not the only one who has received these gifts. Many have been on a long journey, and through their own spiritual hardships have found incredible insights and union with the Divine. From these people I have learned so much, and because of them, I want to give back.
All of us have so much to give each other, I have learned to listen more, open up my heart without suspicion, and connect through the spirit, which is the hidden gift of the internet. Through cyber-space we connect though the heart and the soul. No longer do we need to meet physically. I’ve come to understand that we are all harbingers of change; each and every one of us are both teachers and students of the other. We belong together in a human network of interweaving realities and each divinely ordained experience that we create together, has meaning and purpose. I’ve found that without each other, without our interaction and sharing, nothing changes. We need each other, and forums like these are part of the Divine Plan of the God within all of us.
I’ve started this blog site so that you may join me in what hopefully will be many alchemical moments of change. If you find yourself here, you might ask yourself if it is because you are searching for something and that somewhere in the labyrinth of words might be that moment of truth you are waiting for. Like me, perhaps, you have searched your whole life relentlessly for some piece of yourself that is missing. And like me, you may have felt that empty space in your soul that prevents you from being totally happy. Being here in this moment may prove to be one of those meaningful meetings that changes something for the better. Many times in my search to fill the emptiness, I have found in the words of others a missing piece of my soul. I’d like to return those gifts by sharing my thoughts with you, in the hope that something in them may light up your own road and make sense of what you are experiencing. And I’d like to hear your thoughts in the event there is some wisdom you could share with me too.
Like everyone else, I don’t have the answers to all things, but I do have some answers to the questions that I have been asking. All I can do is share the Divine perspectives that I have been given and leave them out there in case anyone wants to try seeing things through my eyes. I feel that each of us is finding that missing piece of ourselves in our own unique way, and we don’t need others to either preach to us, or prescribe a way forward. What we all do need as human beings, however, is a sense of community. We need to connect, to share without trying to convert others, we should be free to discuss, ponder and ultimately find the truth for ourselves through direct experience.
I do have what some may call some radically alternative views of life. It was the gift of insight that I was given after Zak died. I never mean to offend anyone else’s views. I only intend to put out there another, more peaceful way of viewing things. I believe that my way of looking at life brings peace to the heart and soul, and opens the heart to eternal love. It took me a long time to reach this point in my evolution, and I understand those who cannot resonate with some of my views. All I ask is that you be open. Before you read some of my blogs, I wonder if you might do as I do as I begin to read other people’s words. I try my best to pause and be still. Ancient Zen wisdom taught me that if you leave a glass of muddy water to be still, the mud will sink to the bottom and the water will become clear. I find it a good thing to clear my mind of my own ideas as best I can; be still a while so this can happen. In this space I am able to allow myself to see the world though someone else’s perspective. Where I find I like my own ideas just as they are, they’re always there waiting for me. I’ve opened myself up to so much new understanding this way. I hope you will try this method of approaching both my blogs and other people’s on this wonderful road to the ultimate revelation of True Self. And of course, with a mind completely empty of ideas for just a few moments, you might even see God.
Thank you for being here. Let’s have a truly wonderful journey ahead.